Comfortable

Going up to Mayo clinic I knew was a great decision. Before I went up there I had so much hope we would get to the bottom of my health issues. Maybe I had unrealistic expectations even. What I got was kind of unexpected, but exactly what I needed. They gave me a diagnosis I had heard many times before. But hearing it this time I knew I was ready to stop searching for the needle in a haystack. I didn't get the answer I wanted, but the answer I needed. Since then I've been trying to just live life. I battle with the idea of still searching for a another answer every day, but everyday I put that thought to the side and just go forward. Last night we went out with a group of friends for Spanish tapas. We had a great time and after we left I felt normal for the first time in a long time. I didn't feel like my friends didn't know how to act around me, I was treated like a normal human being. That was wonderful! Being comfortable in your own skin makes those around you feel more comfortable too. To top all this off, today I thought to myself, I'm finally at a place of accepting I may never walk again. I'm totally fine with that. A week and a half ago I gave up the search and decided to live, today I am at peace with where I am. I guess I'm finally comfortable in my new skin.