This is me

I'm different than the person I used to be. When I'm alone I don't feel any different, but I know I am. I don't see too good, my hearing is not that great, and my speech is slow. I haven't found my comfort level with being around others yet. I thought I had. Last night I realized I had not. It was time for me to go to Bible study and I started to freak out. Thinking about having to talk in front of people and not being able to hear everything, I got myself worked up to the point of not feeling well. I ended up not going. Talking with Emily about everything I broke down. She is so good to me. We talked through everything. She said I won't feel accepted by every one until I accept myself. So that's my goal to be fully comfortable with myself. Emily made me realize it's all on me. Have I gone somewhere and people pointed and laughed? No. Has anyone made fun of me because of how I talk now? No. Have I fallen out of my wheelchair in front of people? (Except for that one time she dumped me out on the street) No. Get over yourself! I know I've battled this for some time, but I feel like I've had little bit of a break through.