Open book

Since I've been pretty much an open book over the last couple of years I figure why stop now. I'm not sure if it was bad pizza or what??? This morming I woke up with this strong sense of failure. Since discontuing the Chinese herbs months ago my whole diet changed for the worst. I tried eating healthy, but it seems the harder I tried the hader I fell. This morning just slapped me in the face. I'm not only hurting myself, but Emily in the process. The longer I allow 'crap' foood into my body, the longer I stay in the chair, thus putting more work on Emily. Plus, I'm not being supportive of her desire/need to get healthier. Those are my two cents this morning.

What's up?

What's up with me? This has been a funky start to the year so far. I'm really hoping after this weekend life will get back to normal or some semblance of normalcy. My sister's wedding is this weekend and that should be it for out of the norm living for a while. Don't get me wrong I'm so excited for her and her day. Our condo search has ended in a comforting decision. We will put that on hold for the time being and get things in order and go into home ownership more prepared. Going through the process caused me to want to buy in the future so if for no other reason that's why we went through that. Those have been the two main things consuming my life this month. As for my physical update: I'm still going to therapy twice a week. I do aqua therapy twice a month, which has been really good for me. I'`ve been doing more standing and a little walking. I just keep working hard and believing I'll walk again. What a journey!

Ball of emotions

Emily and I have been condo searching since December 26th. We'll refer to it as the great elevator debacle. I think that's what I needed to push me out of my commfort zone and make a leap into home ownership. Yesterday was a big day. I found out what the buyout of the lease will be, that was a huge stress lifted from my shoulders. Once I found that out it was gametime. At the end of the night we met our realtor and families at the condo we've been considering. Both our families felt the same way as us. It's a great place for. Taking that confidence we went to the real estate office, drew up the papers and made an offer. Excitement. Fear. Anxious. Just to name a few of the emotions enveloping me today. Let's just try and relax and let whatever happens happen.

Good move?

So Emily has been blogging about this since we've started. I figure I'll post a little something. We've been condo searching since December 26th. What an odd time to start huh? Being in my keep looking forward phase of this new year I never shared our christmas experience.

So, about 9 in the morning christmas we wheeled down to the elevator to head out for the days festivities. Or so we thought. After pushing the down button and even the up button what seemed to be 100 times we came to the realization we weren't taking the elevator down today. Being in a more relaxed Lexapro driven state of life I calmly called the local fire department to see what our options are. After talking to dispatch and waiting a few short minutes I was informed Joliet's finest would come and resscue my day. Once they showed up and they talked me through what bringing me down the stairs wood entail. Sounds easy enough to me. Now that that's out of the way on to the important stuff. Would you guys mind posing for a picture? After straightening themselves up the four of us posed for a picture. Now that we're downstairs it's on to our celebrations. After being out all day these two weary souls are ready for bed. We parked outside and Emily ran inside to check the elevators. Being gone for a few minutes I assume she's upstairs. But to my dismay she exits the building with the stuff she entered. What do we do? Our families do not have an open bed for us. I guess it's on to a hotel. To speed things along I'll let you know we had to stay in a hotel for two nights. This wasn't the first elevator mishap but it definitely was the one to push me over the edge. Not sure if I'm ready to buy a condo but I know it's time to move. I've lived here over four years. The elevator issues have gotten worse over the last year. Having to break our lease early, I'm sure we have solid legal footing to do so with out a penalty. I think we've found the place we want to buy and are nearing a decision. I'd like to thank Janine for all of her assistance with the financing aspect. So alright that's my two cents on our buying a condo adventure. Once a decision has been made I'll share the news and my fear with you. That was kind of scatter brained I know, but that's how I feel during this process.

My return

During the holiday season Emily being a teacher had a couple weeks off. Today is her return to work. I decided I'd take a sabbatical myself. I let myself sleep in, not getting up at the customary 4 am hour, but nearly 10 am most days. Take time away from the computer, I would check email and my sports reading though. Now this morning as I type I feel invigorated with writing again. So the season of rest seems to have served well. I thought about rehashing my holidays for you, but I decided I would keep my focus forward. Staying in the present and future tense at this point of the new year. Let's stay focused and determined all year. Accomplish all that our hearts desire and our minds can fathom.